Feb 20, 2010
Jun 13, 2013
Hana Yori Dango, Hana Kimi, Dream High, City Hunter, Boys Over Flowers, Nobuta Wa Produce, Dong Yi, The Moon That Embraces the Sun, Coffee Prince, Reply 1997
Biography:Anniversary Status Updates
- February 4
So as some of you know...I tend to like to put up a lot of shit on anniversary day to make up for being very bad at uploading throughout the rest of the year :)
3rd Anniversary Updates
Ashes to Ashes
Best I Ever Had - Posted
The G Star - Posted
Your Love Is My Drug - Posted
It Doesn't Have to Mean Anything - Posted
Imbroglio - Posted
Fallen Angel - Posted
Blood and Tears
Revenge Is A Dish Best Served By Ikuta Toma - *final chapter* - Posted
Professionals - Posted
The Drabble-y Life of Akira and Nobuta - Posted
Impure Intentions - Posted
*NEW* 100 Prompt - Moments where Hye Mi Fell For Sam Dong (or the other way around) Dream High Edition - Posted
*NEW* Locks and Latches - Fan Fiction Edition (there are two :) FYI, Best I Ever Had also has two editions) - Posted
Madness - A Drabble
"It's just too easy to imagine you're mad at me you know," He grinned, staring down rather uselessly at the limbs he called thighs. Everything about him felt useless right now.
"Why is that?" She shot back her gaze perplexed and considerably annoyed the more he spoke.
"Because I'm always mad at you." He smiled up at her in a way that should have made the statement sarcastic but his tone was anything but.
It was the truth, in this 10 year relationship nowadays he found himself more angry than before, frustrated though by what he wasn't really sure. They felt stale and old where they should have felt comfortable and safe. "That's rich." She scoffed and started walking out and he laughed, clapping a hand over his mouth.
"Yes! Walk! Please!" He pleaded joining his hands together, closing his eyes in mock desperation aware that her body had turned back now to look at his rather pathetic pose. "Walk out on me, this is exactly what I wanted when I brought this up." It was true, this opposite claim where really he was asking her to stay, in a rather cruel way.
Though everything about them annoyed him now...he didn't want her to leave.
It would be like saying good bye to his baby blanket and he remembered at 8 how much he'd cried and screamed. He'd almost thrown himself off the roof.
That couldn't happen again now could it?
"How dare you?" She didn't bother with any of the harsh undertones that he had had in his voice. She was much to smart for that. She always had been straightforward. "How dare you when I have been trying so hard to make this worth it? To make this work because really neither of us wants to look at each other and say well there goes 10 years of our life with a shit head." Though the words shouldn't hurt him, they did because even though she said she didn't want to say what she just did...she said it. The implications of the words were only too obvious as they stared at each other silently breathing. Each waiting to pop the question...but it was the wrong one. The one neither of them wanted to hear. "Do you want to end this then? Let's just do it. Right now, get it over with. You're like an old scab now for me, it won't even hurt scratching you off anymore."
That hurt him more but she was right. Maybe this was what was supposed to happen. Maybe it was also meant to be that months later, after he figured out he should have never let her go, he would throw himself off the roof. Maybe this was the path they were supposed to take.
And who the hell was he in the end to stop fate? "So let's stop trying then."
"Fine with me." She grabbed her purse from the cushion picked up her keys. "I'll pick up my stuff later." She closed the door, the click of the latch closing him inside alone echoed too loudly for his liking in this empty apartment they used to share.
He wished he could be indifferent right now.
That he could convince himself right now that it really didn't matter anymore that she was not here.
But he can't.
Because he was pretty sure that she was mad at him now.
And he was definitely still mad at her.
Lilli's Note: At some point, almost every love story turns into an angry story. Sometimes these angry stories end here angry. It's sad but true. If you're angry, don't act out, don't try and hold onto your pride. Say what you need to say because you don't want to end things badly, or let go when it's not time yet even though you're acting out.